Ep. 6 - A Lucky Turn

So apparently jumping out of cruise control is harder than expected. My new plan is just to be the best I could be, and to not over think anything. Tia and I were in the bottom two this week and I thought I was for sure going home; there was no doubt in my mind. But the tables were turned and neither of us went home which I suspect will push everyone to the edge of reason in the next week. I’m actually a little scared to see who explodes, the pressure that has now been put on us is so extreme, and I fear that I might crack under it. I was looking at the pictures I received from my gift from home recently and I found that the pictures that were taken right before I left look like the Tara I see myself as; I don’t know whose looking back at me in the mirror anymore…maybe it’s Tara the Brand! I think that if I remember who I was in the beginning of the competition that I’ll be able to improve and jump out of cruise control; all I really want to do is work my hardest and if that’s not enough than that’s not enough but at least I’ll know I didn’t give up, and I believe that that is what really matters, cause quitters suck.