Ep. 3 - Attitude Adjustment
Today Steff went home and the house seems so much quieter. Once again I was completely shocked that Jay pulled my picture out from his hands. I was 100% convinced that I was done. That’s been the case the past three weeks so I think that it’s time for me to change my attitude. I need to start believing in myself. I’m just really frustrated with the fact that the judges think that I can’t be a model. I don’t really know what I can change to make them believe that I can. I was told that it was really close between Tara and me in the walk-off on MOD so my walk couldn’t have been that bad AND I honestly didn’t think my commercial was that bad either. So, why was I in the bottom two again? Also, I was completely humiliated in front of the judges when they asked me about fashion. If they can pick up a model working at Tim Hortons, chances are the girl isn’t going to know a whole lot about fashion. I do know more then the average person but that’s a big reason why I’m here. To learn! I’ve been studying something completely different for the past five years. They knew nothing about what I do because the careers they chose were in the fashion industry! I’m taking a risk and trying something new because it’s intriguing to me – I want to learn more. It totally excites me. But I’m just starting out in it… give me a break. All I know is I have to really step it up this week or I’m gone.