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Ep. 8 - A True Fashionista Decision

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

It was a really hard decision today. We have two incredible girls with completely different looks but both equally amazing. As a true fashionista, I think we made the right decision to represent Canada. Keep fashion alive!

Ep. 8 - Inevitable Tears (1st Judging)

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

Tears are inevitable today. We've seen our little ones grow up before our eyes. Today, two must take the walk...Tara and Tia are my two choices for today.

Unfortunately, they showed the weakest in the "Cover Girl" competition...and they helped seal in my mind why they cannot be given a pass to the final competition.

Rebecca and Sinead have continued to shine. So for that, I feel it correct that they make it to the final...

Only one entry left to make.

Stay tuned.

Ep. 8 - Rebecca Captures The Majority Vote (2nd Judging)

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

The count is in, the votes have been tallied. The winner is...not who I voted for...

Rebecca captured the majority of votes. This takes nothing away from Rebecca's rise to the top in this competition. But that is life in all its wonderment!

I liken it to the buffet factor. Put 30 people in front of a buffet table...no two plates will be alike...and that is what makes life so unpredictable. When you get right down to it, it takes nothing away from Sinead's beauty - Rebecca won this on her own!! This has been an incredible experience that will be with me for the rest of my life. If you have taken the time to read my blogs - I thank you!

Ep. 8 - It's Been Nuts

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

Boy oh boy! Today has been an interesting trip. We had an idea that two of us were going home so we were pretty freaked out about the whole situation. The judges were really hard on Sinead, and tough on the rest of us as well. They were saying that Sinead's outfit was garbage which pissed me off because I have the same shirt. Its tough sometimes in judging because they tell you one thing then ask for the other. I was presently surprised to have had my Cover Girl photo look not like a big piece of garbage. I worked really hard at the shoot and I was confident but also a little nervous for the picture. Since the top prize is a contract with Cover Girl I knew that I had you had to show you could do a shoot for them. It just makes sense this way. So Tia went home on an extremely crazy note to say the least. Jay had called her name and she thought that she was staying then he told her that she was going home. Its came as a real shocker to her and I felt horrible. *Props* Tia on being a super fun girl. Then is was down to me and Tara, I love Tara and me and her being up there was really rough. My picture was flipped over but Tara and I hugged and she said "I love you ***" in my ear. It was tough but that just how the competition is, people have to go home. Well is been nuts, so I gotta jam to bed. Latter days biotches!

Ep. 8 - A Step In The Right Direction (1st Judging)

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

I've grown fond of all of the girls and it's really hard to see them go. As a model myself, I would suggest that Tara and Tia, like all the other girls who have already gone, think of this elimination not as a defeat but as a step to achieving their dreams. Imagine if I or Stacy had given up after someone said we couldn't make it. Keep going and keep your head up no matter what!

Ep. 8 - Risks Are Exciting (2nd Judging)

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

And it finally came down to two: one who has a traditional beauty and one who has a beauty that will take the fashion world to a new land. I think taking a risk is always more exciting than taking the safe road...I'm excited!

Ep. 8 - Hell Yes! Final Two!

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

Going from four to two girls is so strange! Especially considering that Tia is gone. I think it's fairly obvious that I was closest to Tia in the house and it's going to be so different without her. Not only that, but who's going to fill the silence now? Seeing Tara go is also hard because I was just beginning to get closer to her. Tara is definitely a person I'll never forget - on first impression she might be a little rough around the edges, but once you get to know her you see she's just a wimp like the rest of us J I wish the two girls the best, and although I'm sad to see them go, I just have to say.... HELL YES! FINAL TWO! Phew, I needed that. Anyways, gotta go practice my runway walk! Nice chatting with you.

Ep. 8 - A Sick, Wicked And Radical Experience

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

I got eliminated, and it was based most on my performance in the photo shoot. I'm so sick right now and I brought that into the shoot with me. I'm sad that I in fact am going home and like I'm letting down a lot of people, but I tried my best I gave my all and I hope people see that. I want people to know that even though I was a dancer that I was a model in this competition and that leaving my roots was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But on the bright I won a diamond watch ;). I won't give up modelling but I feel like I need to make changes in my life to enable me to commence my career. This has been a sick wicked and radical experience and I'm so lucky I was in the last three. And I thank all the judges and directors and producers for this opportunity.

Ep. 8 - Feeling Like A F&^*%in' Idiot

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

So today was my last day in the competition. I was ready to go home, not that I wanted to, but I had prepared for the evitable. The problem was the way that I was sent home. Jay called me up... I didn't know where to go, all the way half way? Then he told me I was going home. I hugged all the judge. But it gets better I stopped half way up the runway and thought "Where do I go?" I was looking around the room like a F&^*%in' idiot. It was so embarrassing! I also was upset that I didn't even get to say a good goodbye. I felt and still feel gypped about the way the whole thing ended. Still it was a great adventure, to bad it had to end so shitty. Good luck to the girls, got my figures crossed for the best!

Ep. 7 - Drop Dead, But Naive

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

I'M BAAACCCKKK! I forgot how hard it is to critique the girls being a Model myself. People think that it might be the easiest thing in the world because of how we are portrayed on television, but believe it or not, this business is cutthroat and if you don't step your game up at all times there's someone always waiting to take your place. Unfortunately for Cori this is the case. I think Cori is not ready for this industry; she is a drop dead beautiful girl, but naïve.

Ep. 7 - Get Fueled, Not Discouraged

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

This sure doesn't get any easier. I hope and I pray that Cori continues with her modeling career using all that she has learned here to fuel her rather than discourage her. She is truly a beautiful young woman and I have no doubt that she will by sought after by agencies and agents.

Ep. 7 - "Yonkafied" by Yonka

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

Only 4 girls left! Wow, its unreal! The house feels so empty but we're all so excited for everything to come! Tomorrow's going to be our last photo shoot so the pressure's really going to be on. This week started off fairly interesting, as we were all "Yonkafied" by one of Canada's first super models, Yonka. A very different experience, and honestly, a little unorthodox for my taste, but we still had a lot of fun! Next, we had a cover try photo shoot with Fashion magazine which was tonnes of fun (especially because I could smile!) and sadly, in the end, Cori was eliminated. I'm excited to see how the rest of the competition will pan out, there still being 4 girls and everything. Anyways, gotta go get my beauty sleep! Wish me luck!

Ep. 7 - Back In Model Drive

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

Cruise control was jumped! I killed the photo but the judges seem to feel that I'm not confident enough. It came down to the final two in judging and in the end I stayed and Cori went home. It was nice. She didn't like me that much, or AT ALL!!!!!! Hahaha, I'm just glad I'm still in the competition still and I feel like I'm getting the drive to really want to be a model again and not a dancer, even though I'll miss it. I'm so happy that I'm still here and I'm ready to bring my all to the next roadblock they put up.

Ep. 7 - Comfortable Equals Confident

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

This week was so much fun! Even though I didn't win the challenge I got to shop and pretend to be a mannequin. People would stop and look at us and I tried not to laugh. I am the only girl in the house that hasn't won a challenge and that sucks. Still when a girl's depressed shopping is the best remedy. And so I bought lots of pretty things :) It was so kool to see Dexter's clothes, she was So girly. Heeheehee... later on in the week we had the photo shoot and I had a lot of fun, but when it came to judging I didn't love the picture. The judges did and that what counts... right? My favourite is still the LG shoot.. it's so weird being four, four is a small number. Still when you do the math it's only a 25% chance of winning and that isn't big at all! Cori went home and I will miss her but we have made plans already to chill after this is over. Peace out! Byer...Oh! One last thing, today was the first day I felt comfortable in front of the judges... remember to be yourself. You will more comfortable and people will pick up of your confidence, that's the note of the day! Chew on that!

Ep. 7 - The Field Is Getting Thinner

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

The end is nigh! After a long month, the days are getting shorter and the field is getting thinner. The competition, however, is getting harder!!! It is not an easy choice today. The dark horses are running to the front of the pack, the forerunners are losing ground. What a race! It will definitely be a sprint to the finish.

My vote tonight has to be for Cori. She came much further than I thought she could; however, tonight her race comes to an end.

Ep. 7 - The Challenge Winner!

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

Oh my! A lot of interesting things have gone down since the last judging. I'm pretty sure Cori is really upset with me because of the comments I had at last judging. I hope she turns them into a positive for herself because tonight she was sent home. It was down to Tara and Cori, and well Cori went home. It's getting down to the crunch of things and the four of us left have pretty good relationships. At judging they said my photo was really good but it didn't fit the magazine. Apparently I needed to be more smiley! It's tough because I had grins and smiles in some of my photos but my best photo didn't have a smile in it. Oh the joys of judging, its always a crazy experience. I'm glad that Tara was able to stay because she's my girl and I like having her around. It's tough because the pressure is on and we all have good relationships, which make things harder. The house is getting empty, for which I can only be pleased that I'm still here. I won a challenge and part of my prize was to see my boyfriend. Man o man, its crazy having him at the house and I'm glad that he was able to see the insanity that I now call my home. It was kind of awkward at first, but it was amazing to see him. In the next shoot I plan on killing it. Well gotta jam!

Ep. 7 - New Found Confidence

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

I am so disappointed right now, not just with myself but more in the judge's decision because they chose Tara over me, that is the last person I wanted to be standing with. I think if Tara wins she will just go back to being a dancer because I feel that is her true passion, not modeling. I also hope Rebecca doesn't win because she only has one look and Canada's Next Top Model needs to be versatile, they also need to be a role model who Rebecca is not, she had sex in the top model house which I feel is extremely inappropriate. I just hope that Sinead wins because she is the only girl other than myself that I can picture being Canada's Next Top Model. It just sucks because I tried my best in every single photo shoot but it never showed in my eyes, I still don't know what I was doing wrong, I thought I followed direction very well this week unlike Rebecca who couldn't even do what they asked of her. I am so grateful for this entire experience, it has changed my life. I am a much stronger person because of it, I have a new found confidence in myself even though the judges didn't see that. I am so proud of myself for making it this far, but at the same time I wanted to win so badly. This isn't the last of Cori though you'll see me in a magazine or on the runway I guarantee it, I won't give up my dream because it is the only thing I can see myself succeeding in.

Ep. 6 - The Motivating Factor

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

This week we had another challenge - this time we had to go on go-sees. We had to go to six different locations to show off our brand. I won the prize in the end because I hit the most places and got one of the better scores with the designers and clients. My prize was a $5,000 diamond and white gold ring from Birks Jewellery! I was ecstatic.

Later that week we got to have a photo shoot with Nigel Barker. We got to be Bond Girls dressed in lingerie, talking on the new LG chocolate phone, and managing a Great Dane who kept trying to pull me away. I thought I did a great job but I actually found out in judging that I was the worst of the day, so I guess I can't exactly go by Nolé's comments on the shoot because he changes his mind by the time we get to judging. After our photo shoot with Nigel, we came home and there was a note from him saying he wanted to meet us for dinner and to arrive in style. We arrived at an Indian restaurant and I was very sceptical and nervous because I have never had Indian food before and I don't like spicy food. Once we got in the restaurant I put on my brave face and I actually tried everything that was put on my plate, I can't say that I like it but I am so proud of myself for trying because I don't think I ever would have at home.

At judging this week I got a huge shock, every other girl in the house thinks that I am fake, and I couldn't stick up for my self because I was crying too much. Also no one got sent home this week, Tia and Tara were in the bottom two but Jay pulled out both of their pictures. I have a new outlook on this entire competition, I have no friends in this house so I can concentrate more on beating them. I feel very lonely right now but I am going to try to use that to fuel my drive to win.

Ep. 6 - Drama Queens!

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

Finally....DRAMA! The claws came out tonight, briefly. I love a good confrontation with honesty of words being the weapon of choice. It amazes me that the girls can be all cooey on set and be so human when they are forgetful of cameras and audio recordings. I saw some great photos done by Nigel of the ladies - very impressed with the way some of them have transformed...while others have not moved forward in their quest. If I hear "I'm trying" or "next time, one more time", I'm going to lost it. In life, you're lucky if you even get the chance...your even luckier if you get a second chance...but a 3^rd or 4^th or 5^th? You get the picture.

Ep. 6 - Unimpressed and Frustrated

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

So I’m not to impressed with the judges today. I understand that coming to a conclusion about sending someone home is a hard choice, but to keep both is just unheard of. I think I’m most upset because this elimination round I was chosen first because I produced a great photo. Its just tough because I want this so bad, and its just so dang frustrating. Tia and Tara were in the bottom two, and I think Tia was really surprised with that. I was told during my one on one with the judges that I had to tell them a misconception about someone in the group. I said that Cori was kind of fake and that she didn’t act like she does in front of us in front of the judges. Cori is a great girl but she needs to be more open and feel more comfortable in certain situations. This competition gets tougher and tougher as the weeks go on but to be honest I’m trying my best to stay strong and push through. I will not be beaten by someone by default or any other reason. This is what I want and I’m going to continue to work hard, for the best results. Later days!

Ep. 6 - The Biggest Misconceptions

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

WOW a Top Model first! No one sent home on elimination day? Totally unexpected! Tara and Tia were in the bottom two and when Jay pulled out the photo I couldn’t make out whose it was, so I looked to the girls for their facial expressions to give it away….then I realized they were both smiling… looked back…and TWO PHOTOS!? Crazy! In a way I’m happy for them because I believe they both deserve a second chance. On the other hand, this is a competition and people do need to be eliminated in order to have a winner (ehem ME… just kidding… but not really hehe). It just means stiffer competition for the weeks to come I guess! Today was an intense elimination. The judges made us say what we thought the biggest misconception they had about us was, and also the biggest misconception they had about someone else in the competition. For myself, I said that their perception of me as a weak person was misconceived, and for Tia, I said that no one realizes how much *** she takes from people and how much it hurts her, yet she still continues to be herself regardless and stays fun and witty and talkative J (not to mention she’s one of the most forgiving people I’ve met). Overall, this week’s Go See’s and Lingerie-Bond-Girl photo shoot was amazing.. I can’t wait for more!

Ep. 6 - A Lucky Turn

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

So apparently jumping out of cruise control is harder than expected. My new plan is just to be the best I could be, and to not over think anything. Tia and I were in the bottom two this week and I thought I was for sure going home; there was no doubt in my mind. But the tables were turned and neither of us went home which I suspect will push everyone to the edge of reason in the next week. I’m actually a little scared to see who explodes, the pressure that has now been put on us is so extreme, and I fear that I might crack under it. I was looking at the pictures I received from my gift from home recently and I found that the pictures that were taken right before I left look like the Tara I see myself as; I don’t know whose looking back at me in the mirror anymore…maybe it’s Tara the Brand! I think that if I remember who I was in the beginning of the competition that I’ll be able to improve and jump out of cruise control; all I really want to do is work my hardest and if that’s not enough than that’s not enough but at least I’ll know I didn’t give up, and I believe that that is what really matters, cause quitters suck.

Ep. 6 - Given A Second Chance

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 11:30:00 GMT

Today I walked into the judging room with such confidence. I did well talking over the funny faces the panel were pulling and all together had a lot of positive fed back. I walked out of the judging room thinking for the first time I was a shoe in, little did I know… Tara and I were the bottom two. I don’t think anyone expected that. I was prepared to go home, not that I wanted to, but I find it best to prepare oneself for the worst. As we held hands I thought about what I would do if today was my last day. What would I say to Jay? Tothe girls? Could I hold it together long enough to make it past those doors? As Jay spoke I fought back the tiers, I looked over to Tara and I could see she was holding her composure which helped me be strong. Jay finally turned over the picture and it was mine, I looked over to Tara but she was smiling. Confused I searched for and explanation. Jay stood there with Tara’s photo as well. Jay and the rest of the judges have given me a second chance. I did well this week and still ended up at the bottom? I guess I’ve got to prove to them I’m not a one hit wonder. I’m working on it! Still this have taught me to always leave the house packed up and ready to go home. Peace out! Byer

Ep. 5 - Endings and Beginnings

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 28 Jun 2007 17:51:00 GMT

I really appreciate the opportunity I’ve been given and I’m running with it and intend on working hard to be a huge success in this industry. I’ve learned so much and plan on applying those lessons to yield a long-lived career. I definitely do not regret this experience. Each of the girls in the house had distinct personalities and may have clashed but they’re all incredible people.

I must thank all my family and friends that supported me – Abi, Bee, David, Tosyn, Imoteda, Robbie - you’re all amazing! All of you who watched the show and rooted for me, I love you! I must also thank those who sent e-mails to BT Toronto encouraging me -that meant so much to me, and thanks to Kevin Frankish!!!! It's priceless knowing that people actually care and appreciate my efforts on the show. That motivates me and now you know I won’t stop. And for everyone out there who has the passion and drive, I say go for it and all the best!

Ep 5 - Fears Realized

CNTMJunkie — Thu, 28 Jun 2007 11:30:00 GMT

What I was afraid of happening happened. The panel saw what I was afraid of, that I was gliding underneath the surface of good, and was just mediocre. It's really hard to hear that but I knew it had to come. So now I have to really step up my game and show them I'm not just mediocre. I need to exceed their expectations of my skill as a model, and blow them out of the water with my next photo shoot. I realized tonight just how many people were rooting for me and it helped me realize how badly I want this, and what I need to do to achieve it. I need to focus on me and not on how much Cori annoys me, or how much Tia talks, or also how much I miss Gina. All I need to focus on now is Tara-Marie, and how she is doing.